Orinal Date :June29,2015
IF IT IS MEANT TO BE, IT WILL BE
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God knows what is in my heart and God has better plan for me. That is what i always tell to myself whenever I feel the frustration of not being able to push through my medicine degree after nursing. I had plans: a timeline of what I want to achieve until 30’s and that includes studying well in order to finish right away and to become a doctor. I want to do it as soon as possible. In my mind, i know that I might not be able to do all of my plans; but ,at least, I have a backbone of what i want to achieve.
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. I had my heart broken upon knowing that I cannot proceed at that time. Almost everyone is telling me to just pursue my nursing career because it had a lot to offer. Of course, part of what I saw in my mind were houses,cars, luxurious items and being able to bring my parents in the US(because my relatives live there),not only for myself but for my family now and in the future. That vision is not bad at all. (But, there will always be a “but”.) After I passed the local board exam of june 2-3 2013, I Immediately took the opportunity to undergo a post graduate training in a special hospital in the heart of QC. I also engaged myself to another pre-employment training for hospital. I was one of the youngest but I did not mind that while all the other are batch or batches ahead from me. After all, Professionalism has no age. I tried to change my mindset to build another timeline.
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On the contrary, the phrase,” if it is meant to be, it will be” will only be true if you have the courage to pursue against all odds and possibilities. If you want something, just pray. God listens. But God sometimes answer in such ways we cannot imagine. All we have to do is trust Him. I prayed to God.I cried myself to sleep. I storm the heavens to let me be a doctor because this is how i exactly want to serve him. This may sound cliche but I really want to help others by being an instrument of his healing hands. I couldn’t hold my tears back whenever I think of this. I know it is possible and I firmly believed that He will give it to me maybe not when I want it but in his own time. and all I can say is,” in God’s own time, His will be done”.
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. WHY BOTHER?
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I want to be a doctor. Why? I wont tell my reason so I would not influence your thoughts of becoming doctor. But I would say that you really need a good reason for you to hold on to that dream. It will be like your covenant so that you will not give up when the difficult times test you to move on further with the medicine degree. You have to rationalize it. Clinging to the fact that it is your dream ever since you were a child is not enough. It is a lot easier back then. Gone were the days when all the profession you know when asked ,”what you want to be when you grow up” are salesman, policeman, fireman, doctor, nurse and teacher. When you grow up, you will realize that life is more complicated as it seems to be and that great achievement equates to hard work and perseverance.You have to know what you really want. If it is for money, you surely have wrong insights about this because this career will take more of you than giving of you. It will be is really soon before you return those investments. The investments not only include money, it includes time, sacrifices and effort.
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My inclination of becoming a doctor deepened when i saw those people who were not able to pursue what their dreams are(regardless of any field) just because they are financially unable but are so determined to find a way . It is like asking myself, if they cannot do it why can’t I? Again, you may think “Iba si Pedro kay Juan. At ang mangyayari kay Pedro ay maaring mangayri o hindi kay Juan”.BUT, Nothing can be concluded unless tried and experimented, right? And, Nothing beats a heart that is burning with desire to achieve a dream. .
PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE
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I thought I should hold my blog content until I got in to a medical school. I have to wait. Yes, i must exercise patience but it must be couple up with perseverance and exhausting all effort. I am solely relying to scholarships so I passed my applications to all school that I know has scholarship grants.While it is true that money cannot bring genuine happiness, money is also necessary to have a more convenient and enjoyable life. So yeah, it matters. I may not have the money but at least, i am determined. In time I will see what is set for me. Let us see what will happen after a year…. Dated: May16 2014